Dropped Carson off at Kindergarten this morning. I was less sad and more proud than I had expected. A few tears fell as I sat in the car and looked at JJ and we realized what was happening as we began to drive away. He was ready, and I had no choice but to be ready too.
I'm praying for him this morning. Hoping so desperately that we trained him well. That he doesn't just know in his head what's right and wrong but that we trained is heart well.
It's less a moment of difficulty in letting go, although that's hard too, but reflecting on how we've gotten him to where he is now. Carson has lot's of "life" in him. People are drawn to him as a result. I believe too that it is because of Who his life is rooted in. 
I want him to love people around him cause we love well at home. I'm grateful for how much we love at home. He knows this is his safe place. That no matter what is said or done to him at school, he gets to come home to a place where he couldn't be loved any better or bigger. Rooted in Jesus.
Thank you Lord for the gift of Carson. Who he is and what he's becoming. And ALL that you are going to do in his little life. May his deep and real love for you be radiant today as he tackles this big day. And for me, that I can be sure that his heart has been taught well because You are the center of all that we are.
So, after he pushed my hand away in my attempt to help him do his first bit of kindergarten "work" I swallowed hard and smiled. He's ready. With a kiss on the lips(I know that won't last much longer) I whispered "DYB!"(do your best) and "Remember whose you are". Something I heard over and over growing up. Thanks mom! :)
Glad we have more years of shaping him and training his heart. Being purposeful in taking time for teachable moments and heart lessons.
I know that I will be the first mom waiting outside today for the end of school bell to ring...
4 comments:
This is sweet as can be! and you're so right, people are drawn to him because of Who's he is! <3
~love from Connie :)
Gosh! Such a great post. And you're so right, Matt and I would hang out with that kid for days if we could :) He'll do great Jess! You and JJ have done an awesome job with him.
This is so special! I am crying at work! Thanks for sharing, and I still remember the DYB and remember whose you are from when I lived with you all for awhile. Such special times! You are a great momma Jess! Keep up the good work :) Love you!
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